朋友,对我来说越来越陌生..
以前天真地以为朋友会替我分担烦恼..
我会酱想是因为当时没有什么事情发生..
现在,我看得很清楚..
一个好朋友在我发生事时冷落我..
我只是希望她能替我分担..
我懂她觉得很烦,可是我可以确定我烦的东西不比她少..只是我不说..
以前有烦恼我都会收着..因为我不想别人跟着我烦..
她总是问我为什么酱不开心?我总是说没事..
现在那件事发生了,结果呢?
为什么她要一直给我脸色看?
我也是人呐..我也有感觉..
一直以来我都迁就着她,因为我知道那是她的性格..
但是在我发生事时我感觉到她的责备..
我们聊天的内容都包含着责怪与无奈..
我已经越来越不了解她了..
我也不敢奢望我们会像以前那样开开心心..
因为我一找她聊天她就发脾气..
我很烦,很烦..T.T

心情...很复杂...
我感到很彷徨,无助...
从决定要同居时我就已经知道会有那么一天...
我只是不喜欢被隐瞒的感觉...很难受...
我以为我们之间不会有'隐瞒'这两个字出现...
我知道我很会吃醋...我会试着改...可是那时就代表我已经不在意你了...
你那些伤害我的话在你不经意时已经刺穿我的心了...
我被你伤得很多次了...
我每次都告诉自己我们两个好不容易在一起...不可以轻言放弃...
可是我的心真的好痛好痛...
我无法不爱你,但是我也无法原谅时常伤害我的你...
我真的好想你可以时常陪着我...
我很害怕孤单的滋味...
我一直以为跟你在一起你会开心和幸福...
可是事实好像不是那么理想...
我不舍得放开你,但是我也不晓得怎样面对你...
我一不开心就会变得很沉默...我一直以来都是这个样子...
如果有一天我消失了,你应该会好过点吧...
我不想成为你的累赘...
对不起,我爱你...
我爱你的方式就是逃避...

huh~finally..

finally i finish watching an amazing hong kong movie v my dearest bf..

this movie named '老公万岁' and it's contain 20 episodes..

well,quite funny in action and talking..

but,also got some part touching..

so,this movie is suitable for all of u to watch..^^

haiz..super duper regret nw..
jus nw my microeconomic exam..i realize tat when i open tat question paper,mny ?? inside my brain..
i dunno hw 2 do bcos i din do revision..
bt,it's too late..i jus cn worry about my result..
i so scared la..bcos tat will effect my final exam..
i reali hate tis subject from secondary school..
last time in malay version called ekonomi asas..
now,in english version called microeconomic..
but,all the same..just different language..
i never ever think that accounting course also will related v economic..
reali make me headache..bad mood now..
feel lik wan escape from this situation..

today is me n my bf 100th days annivesary..
actually i should happy..but dunno why whole day i feel so moody..
i no hope he will gift me anything..i just hope he can take care of my feeling..
dunno why i start like to angry to him..dun like to choi him when i angry..
i so scared this situation will maintain for this two years..
maybe i already started dissapointed lo..but i hope that is not the truth..
i support him in everything..i hope he will success in his studies oso..
but dunno why i feel that he very easy will forget me..
i know he vry worry me n love me..but the action is most important..
i cnt see anything..so i seldom feel touch because of him..
that oso the reason why i always so miss the moment in ns..
because at that time i feel that he treat me better than now lo..
now,i scared to call him do things for me..
because i scared he will make me dissapointed again..T.T